Wednesday, August 30, 2006
5:45:00 PM
oh well.cant take it anymore.its always better to speak out but u see am de kind who really really dun wanna hurt others.and aint wanna remind em wit e past.but then since this is just gonna be a writin.ok.lets dun say its "just".but then i find this is a better way for me to express wad i had kept on me till now..erm..lets say since abt erm..i dun remember..coz i aint wanna remember.and ya this aint gonna be a revenge thingy or not gonna be something which is to pick a fight wit ya.tis jus wad i feel and guess u should be glad tat am not gonna pour out all this infrnt of ya.well.ever since tat day.i was already movin on although i was sad and hurt.but hey its ok.its part of life.then there was this thing abt some of the guys whom we know started to ignore ya.and u thght.or wait.and u misunderstood tat i was reason why they were not tokin to ya.well.am not a kinda guy who would go ard tellin ppl tat "hey u know abt her.dun tok to her.ignore her.stay away.dun give a face to her".i totally have no idea on why they dun wanna tok to ya.if u wanna know.ask em urself but wad really..erm( its rainin here at this moment..wooo.sucha nice climate..its dark and cold..erm..oops..back to e thing i was writin..)..where did i stop.oh ya..wel..wad really really sent me into the pits was de a mail to my best frend.well.am askin ya.seriously.erm.nevermind.i dun wanna ask anythin.well.u just accused me of writin some stuffs in my old friendster profile.why de hell would i wanna do tat.even after the short period of us gettin to know each other, guess erm u didnt get to know me.i know am not a kinda guy who would indirectly scold or "attack" ppl.i just wrote wad i like and wad i dun.it was like as if i wrote ur name there beside those words.and yet even though i came to know tat u misunderstood it, all i did was close down tat account so as not to make it a big issue.seriously,u think tat i got time for all this.and to come to think of wad i had sacrificed for ya..erm..no its ok.better dun tok abt my sacrifices.well,parents are indeed very important and they should be the one who comes first.always.these were ok wit me.well.parents against it.alrite.its fair for em to think tat way.but after tat unfortunate incident,i dun understand why u wanted to bring up the matter by approachin my frend and askin my frend to show tat mail of urs.tat seriously hurt me.hurt me real bad.especially the last sentence.but anyway.i had since got over it.but strangely enuf, in one way or another, these things comes back to me.either frm a word of mouth or thru some mails.but aint gonna give any single damn thing abt it.i have alot of other stuffs to care abt, and got to go and get back the things i had sacrificed.and by the way.i do not think i would get a better chance to say this.thanks for ya time though.aint no use of regrettin.aint no use of sobbing.aint no use of being in de past.its good to look back at the past.but aint good to start thinkin abt it.so ya.wooo.and ya..ppl..those damn ppl frm the cousellin company are real scammers.i was sooo happy tat i got a job as a counsellor but those ppl.argh.was damn upset.their behaviour oh man..was so cheapskate eh.wad could i do.i resigned.but thank god it was only after i had my case done.but good news.found another possible company to recruit me.but then again.i dunno.i think its better for me to be by myself.coz nowadays, its difficult to know which company is being genuine.haha.the big ones are of course genuine,but they want certificates frm me so tat i can be one of em.but am just 17.so still yet to pursue my counsellin stuffs.but nevertheless.there is still time.a nong nong time..hahahz.....and ya.do check out the Mrbrown.com site.and look for the national day rally speech.its soooo funny.and really, dun miss it...(its abt the mee siam mai hum..)